Last week, I shared a variety of workout playlists with you. This week, I want to give you a quick rundown of what I’m up to, fitness-wise, for a little context through the upcoming Fit Fridays.
To be honest, a lot of my fitness motivation right now has to do with my weight and how I would like to lose a significant amount right now. I was not a chubby kid nor did I gain a freshman 15, but the weight crept on late in college when I was eating more takeout than I ever had been, then more when I started sitting at a desk, and more over the winter when emotionally eating and dealing with the stress of a breakup and adjusting to living alone.
So why do I want to lose that weight?
I want to lose weight because I don’t ever want to feel like I am being limited by my body. I don’t ever want to feel like I can’t do something because of my weight or fitness level. Even now, I am self-conscious about clothes and swimsuits, and I don’t want to say no to opportunities because of that.
I want to be healthy enough to care for my parents without worrying about my own health when that becomes an issue. I want to be able to have kids down the line and not worry about any avoidable pregnancy issues for myself or my baby. I want to keep up with my kids like my parents did.
More than my weight, I want a LIFE that enables me to say yes to the world. I don’t want to be held back by fear or attachment to belongings. There’s a Litany of Humility that I pray occasionally – about detaching from all the expectations we create for ourselves, and I hold onto weight loss like it’s an idol. I want to be able to detach from the self-centeredness of all the time I spend thinking about my body.
What it really is going to come down to is creating habits in my daily life that I don’t even have to think twice about to create healthy living. Having healthy, prepared food at hand for lunch and dinner. Exercise before work as a reflex rather than an effort. Eliminating the need to decide whether to make an unhealthy choice because the healthy one will be second nature enough that a few aberrations won’t make a difference. Shaking off decision fatigue.
For a while, I was using this app called Balance. The user enters a habit and a number of times to do that action, and the app reminds the user when to accomplish it. I was convinced I was going to become disciplined and efficient (as I always think I can). I did not become disciplined and efficient. Using Balance made every habit a reminder, and it just didn’t work for me. Personal accountability works.
A work friend to share healthy lunches. Another who carpools in for early morning workouts with me. These are the pieces that are currently working.
I decided to treat working out like I am taking a class this fall. More structured activities at least three days a week (things that involve changing into work out clothes and putting on sneakers) and doing at least something small and intentionally active the other four days (a quick video, 50 squats, choosing to ride my bike when I’d usually use transit, walking up the eleven flights of stairs to my apartment, etc). So far, so good.
I am restarting on that whole running thing. After my third half last January, I ran about 6 times until last week. I’ve run 6 more times since last week. “Run” because there is a lot of walking in the first couple C25K weeks. Then the Zen Labs 10K app. Then half training to do Carlsbad again in January. This time faster, with better training. (Then…maybe…a full in March. Crazy, but I’d love to say I did it once.)
I’ve also been using the 21 Day Fix videos (did them daily for most of August but now rely on Upper, Lower, and Dirty 30) and Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide, which was shared with me by a friend. The occasional 7 Minute HIIT work out. The occasional Blogilates video. I’m making it work and getting it done.
The next challenge is making sure I’m making intentional and healthy food choices. When cooking for myself at home, I am good. It’s the eating out and office snacking that get the better of me.
What is your current fitness status? What are you working on right now? Been there, done that? Tell me! Help me!!